So I've just turned 20 and waiting for the 'grown up' feeling. I don't have it and I'm asking myself; "what was all the hype about?" because i can tell you now that life is as boring as it was last week.
Now that we have established that today is as it was last week, when i was 19, it's time to move on and maybe get a new attitude. So being young, black and 'Model C' in the new South African is quite challenging, especially when you are trying find just the "right attitude".
First of all, you have to decide which colour you are in the 'rainbow nation', because like it or not, you have to choose. I don't know about other families, but in mine, no one really put any emphasis on colour (race), as a result i find myself having to struggle in defining where i fit in.
Basically it's all about not being 'black enough' or 'thinking you are white a.k.a coconut'; it's a bit like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. No one considers you 'black', because you know more english than your mother tongue and whose fault is that?
and obviously you're not white, because you're just look black! ahhhhhhhhh! what does anybody want from me? clearly, i'm the dumbo who really believes in the 'rainbow nation', if such a concept ever existed, because the way people are acting...someone is having one on me.
Blame it on me being naive; living in lala land, but can't we all just get along....!
These are one of the days when i feel like screaming at the top of my voice;"stop the world, i wanna get off!"
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